Day 151
Although summer officially faded into fall over a month ago, the change wasn’t felt here in Florida until this past weekend. As I sat out by the pool on Saturday there was a new and welcomed feeling in the air; crisp temperatures accompanied by a beautiful breeze.
As the gentle breeze caressed my face I became quiet in my soul, hearing my inner voice whisper that it was time…. time for the winds of change to bring me into a new season. The timing couldn’t have been more perfect. I was done with chemo and about to start radiation. It had been 3 weeks since my last treatment and the side effects I’d been experiencing for the last several months were beginning to fade away. Finally I was feeling better. Not great, but definitely on the mend.
In order to benefit from new and anticipated changes in our lives, we’re often required to take on new responsibilities, a truth that is clearly evident today.
Why today? Because it’s Nov 1, the day I had decided on weeks ago, the day I would begin to take responsibility for my choices. As I’ve shared in previous posts, my eating habits have always been bad. Simply said, I don’t eat the foods that are good for me, and most of the foods I eat are bad for me. I’ve tried to change this over and over but seem to end up in the same cycle of success followed by failure that motivates me to jump back into “trying” to do better.
Well here I am again, vowing to get back on the wagon. Yes, I’ve failed over and over, but as with all things, I will never, ever give up. I hope and pray that this time it will “stick”. I most certainly have a clearer sense of motivation for taking care of my body. Chemo sucks, and I never, ever want to go through it again. I know that health and diet go hand in hand, and I know that cancer feeds on sugar. Enough said…
Fortunately, I know that I don’t have to do this alone. Philippians 4:13 tells us that;
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”
and I can and will rest on that promise – one day at a time.
In love,
Be gentle with this change. You took s long time to develop your current eating habits, it’s going to take a while to change them as well. You are NOT doing it alone, so trust that God will guide you.