Why Me? Finding Purpose

Day 1

Life is full of ups and downs, and when we find ourselves in a downward spiral we often react by wondering, “why me?” Like you, I’ve found myself in many unpleasant situations, some that have left me feeling fearful and hopeless.

As I look back, it’s clear to me that it has been through the times of trial that I’ve experienced tremendous growth. For every tear I’ve cried, there has been a purpose and eventually a positive outcome.

Having learned this lesson, I know well enough that my current situation can have a happy ending. With this hindsight in mind, I’ve been able to skip the victim mentality and move right into the subject of purpose.

Failure or Part of a Plan?
Which has led me to this project. I’m somewhat of a homebody and often wonder how I can make a difference in the world – without leaving my house. It’s no coincidence that I have a history with blogging. Many years ago I made an attempt at blogging to promote a home business. I made no money and many would look back at the time I spent and see failure.

Life has a funny way of coming full circle if we let it. I began to pray for a way to make sense of a cancer diagnosis, and awoke one morning with an idea. What if I could share my journey with others, and help them to find peace through their own trials? What if my failed blogging attempts were never a setback but rather a setup for something much bigger?

Murphy’s Law
As I began my project, problems came at me with every turn. It had been awhile since I set up a site, and everything was different and confusing to me. My welcome video took 2 days. My phone ran out of space. My eye contact was horrible because I needed to refer to my notes. I had trouble copying the video to my computer It took me 4 hours to center the site. It seemed like – if it could go wrong, it would go wrong. During this exasperating setup period, I heard a little voice in my head, repeatedly telling me I couldn’t do it, nobody would read it if I did, and this was all a stupid waste of my time and energy.

Facing the Enemy
If you ever find yourself second-guessing something that is meant for good purposes, I urge you to dig deep to find the source of your doubts. You and I have a very real enemy who delights in bringing us away from our purpose. He has a nasty arsenal at his disposal, filled with fear, doubt, and insecurity. He is the author of confusion and wants nothing more than to bring us down.

With this in mind, I put on my big girl pants and began to work through the issues that perplexed me, knowing that God has given me the intelligence to figure it all out and to accomplish what I started out to do. It won’t be perfect but when I do my part I can trust that God will do his part in bringing purpose to my efforts.

Have you ever found yourself asking, “Why Me?” Have you found purpose through your trials? Have you been able to overcome confusion and say yes to your inner spirit? I’d love to hear about it.