Day 25
Left behind – no, not like in the 12 book series by that name (I plan to be one of those taken, should the Tribulation occur in my lifetime….), but rather here in Florida.
My husband, father-in-law, and brother-in-law flew to Massachusetts yesterday morning to say their final good-byes to my mother-in-law. We had decided that due to my health, I should stay home, but as they prepared to leave I had some regrets.
Rest In Peace, “Nana Gert”
Yes, her death was expected – and even welcomed. This once feisty, joyful little old lady had been reduced to a physical state that nobody should ever have to experience. We (and she) were grateful for her passing, yet I know it will be a very difficult few days for my husband and his family, made even more painful by my absence.
I regret that I can’t be by his side to support him, that I can’t be there to console him when the tears come, and that my last memory of her will be the disfigured body and face that were left behind after her soul had passed into glory.
I wish I could be with him today and tomorrow, as he spends time at our camp – where we had planned to be all summer. It would be great to sit around the campfire just one night, reveling in the friendships that we’ve developed over the years. I miss my Massachusetts family, who I have the chance to see every summer and would have seen this week – even if for a sad event.
Despite my wishes and regrets, my body has given me confirmation that the trip would have been much too exhausting and strenuous for me. And, as always I can see a hint of God’s perfection in even this. My youngest son, who has Army commitments all summer, had been scheduled to be home from July 1 – 11. This relieved my husband’s greatest concern; that I would be home alone when he had to return north for the funeral. As an added bonus, my oldest son was able to use bereavement time and spend 5 days at home.
So I sit comfortably in my own home, knowing that I’m right where I’m supposed to be – and thanking God for his perfect timing.
Be Blessed,
